I've decided to move. Memang suka menggatal nak tuka2 blog with a new name n a fresher take on life. Suka hati sayalah okay. I'll be closing this chapter and starting a new one. So visit the new one at:

http://preciouslikegoldnugget.blogspot.com

Hurry up before I officially close this one. I'll notify you soon. Supposedly the new one should be more fun I hope..heheh... or same old story..ape2 la

Later ppl. Pls do read my latest blog about the recent attack of our dear fellow Malaysian at Hawthorn. I just realised yesterday that I've met her before and we went to an orchestra show together last month. I feel deeply sad for her. We all are.

Cheers

I'm starting to feel very weary of the fact that I'm not privatizing this blog. I dunno why I get pretty anxious with the fact that people can get to know me even before they actually meet me and have some preconceive idea of what type of person I am. I know my past experience has let me to become a bit paranoid. I mean why would ppl wanna judge you by simply reading a few paragraphs about your thoughts. Most of the things I post does not represent my true self anyway.

WTF? I hv a confession to make. I'm a fbholic. Daym...what's the matter wh me? I woke up today wh an empty feeling inside of me. Suddenly thinking of my dearie best friends back home. I wonder what were they doing? Where did they really go yesterday that was so utmost secret they couldnt reveal it publicly on fb status?What about my dad? Did he post any new pic from his mobile? Oh and i was watching this awesome video last night or shld i say morning cos it was 4am, n i swore i wanted to post it on fb.

So yeah i dont think i can last for a day whout it. I admit it. Ggaaahhh.... The main point is I miss home terribly and it's the closest thing i hv to remind me of my home. It can get very very lonely here sometimes u know.



I want my mummy and daddyand my Pretty Spotty Tiger...

Hey y'all

I've decidedd to lay low from fb for a while. It's crazy how i'm pretty much addicted to it like it'd be the first thing I check every morning. How can the technology empowers you more than you can empower yourselves! Haha. I'm a huge addict okay like i could spend hours and hours stalking i mean looking at ppl's page, finding out about what this friend is doing, waiting anxiously for ppl to comment (well maybe i'm not so anxious wh ppl commenting, i can't be THAT obssessed) and mostly procrastinating from the real task. So this is only the first day. The weird thing is I actually deactivated it like in the afternoon and never look back since. Then I opened up my email n I got a notice that my account was reactivated. WTF? Somebody has been very sneaky eh? Well i dunno maybe fb loves me soo much that it decided to automatically activate itself for me cos FB knows how much I love FBCK!! Nways I've deactivated it AGAIN!

So i dunno how long it'll take till I suffer a withdrawal symptom from not seeing what my friends are up to, the latest picture from my dad's mobile or just updating my status regularly like how i used to. Day 1 is so far going well with me. I pretty much am feeling a bit moody today so don't feel like I need the connection wh ppl. I'll be busy next week so hopefully I'll be okay. Let's see how long I can stand this. Hmm let's try a month. Like an exact month from now my exam will be over. This will hopefully stop myself from wasting precious time wh fb.

But hey there's still friendster, youtube n my blog to ramble about. Haha. Friendster's not so appealing anymore. Looking at it makes me have a headache. No one really reads this blog so I'm safe there. Youtube...ahh youtube is kinda tricky. It's Victoria-Beckham-MAJOR tricky (if u like posh u know what i mean-youtube it okay).

Sorry FBCK, I will be gone for a while. I'll come back the day I dont need you anymore. Because rite now i want and need you - get it? like in the movie nanny macphie or maybe it's the other way round. arghh never mind.

You'll be reading lots of new posts then! Tata

At times I asked myself, why does things have to be soo hard. How come every single thing that I plan did not work out the way I want to. I kept thinking maybe I don't deserve to be happy or maybe I'm not good enough to get what I want and I'm only destined to settle for the second best or sometimes to pick up the pieces that has been left for me.

At times I thought that life is too unfair and I always have to go through too much obstacles even when I wanna make things right, even when I choose to do the the right things. There were even more times when I wanted to give up, convinced that nothing good will ever come out of the situation, believing that maybe it's not worth fighting for

I've forgotten what it's like to fight back, to believe and to be patient. Sometimes I forgot to understand the very meaning of my love to The One. However, I'm grateful that in spite of everything, I've been constantly reminded that there is always hope. Thank you Allah for reminding me

Patience.Preserverance.Prayers

On no soul does Allah Place a burden greater than it can bear. It gets every good that it earns, and it suffers every ill that it earns. (Pray:) “Our Lord! Condemn us not if we forget or fall into error; our Lord! Lay not on us a burden Like that which You did lay on those before us; Our Lord! Lay not on us a burden greater than we have strength to bear. Blot out our sins, and grant us forgiveness. Have mercy on us. You are our Protector; Help us against those who stand against faith (Surah Baqarah, 2: 286)

It's okay if I have to wait a little bit longer. I know it's gonna be worth it.

UPDATE: oops been getting comments about my post cos ppl are a bit concern about what i've written. Dont worry ppl. I'm actually feeling pretty amazing today. I just feel like writing some inspirational stuff today bcos the verse inspired me. Always does!